THIS IS MY STORY, MY TESTIMONY, THE LOVE OF JESUS , HAS CHANGED MY LIFE
God is crazy! He is just a funny guy I think. This week has been an unexpected week of trials upon trials. Nothing to extreem but really just life changing lessons that cause deeper intimacy with Jesus.
A wonderful young woman who is one of my students shared her testimony with our whole school yesterday. It caught me completely off guard the fact that her story was so similar to my own. The way she shared how she felt in the hardest moments of her story, was as if she was putting words to feelings I had years ago during my own difficult times. Feelings of dirtiness shame, guilt and regret and worthlessness. The moments she described were so familier to me and brought me right back to those feelings of shame and guilt. I walked away from that time sobbing uncontrollably. This seriously caught me off guard, totally unexpected.
Her story was powerful. So powerful that it opened my eyes to realize that my story is just as powerful, and that the way I have shared it has still been from a place of guilt as if im still unforgiven, rather than from a place of redemption. I shared it as a typical testimony. But it is not just any testimony, it is my story! It is God's grace that has brought me to where I am today.
So I am writing my story. I am going back to the worst parts of my life and putting words to how I felt during those times and allowing God to do a deeper healing. There has been things I've blamed myself for and for a long time I've believed lies about myself that were a result of decisions I made in my past. I have never revisited my guilt and allowed God to take it from me. I have unknowingly been carrying shame, and believing lies that are effecting how I receive God's love.
I constantly ask God to help me to know Him more and help me to understand His love a little more. Through this act of giving God my guilt I am seeing how my story is truly ALL about His love. As if it could get any better, His love is just insane and I ask to be able to understand it more but I just dont get it at all.
I found myself sitting in the prayer chapel today writing out all the worst moments in my life and literally just laughing. I was laughing! I just cant believe how freaking cool God is! The love Jesus gives us is just incredible. It is unreal but real!
My story is to powerful to share out of shame. It is all about love and there is not shame in Love.
I am excited for the next time I can share my story knowing and truly believing I've been redeemed and set free! Knowing that my story is really the Lords story of endlessly pursuing me with his love, and in the end he got me!
Man God is so sweet!
A wonderful young woman who is one of my students shared her testimony with our whole school yesterday. It caught me completely off guard the fact that her story was so similar to my own. The way she shared how she felt in the hardest moments of her story, was as if she was putting words to feelings I had years ago during my own difficult times. Feelings of dirtiness shame, guilt and regret and worthlessness. The moments she described were so familier to me and brought me right back to those feelings of shame and guilt. I walked away from that time sobbing uncontrollably. This seriously caught me off guard, totally unexpected.
Her story was powerful. So powerful that it opened my eyes to realize that my story is just as powerful, and that the way I have shared it has still been from a place of guilt as if im still unforgiven, rather than from a place of redemption. I shared it as a typical testimony. But it is not just any testimony, it is my story! It is God's grace that has brought me to where I am today.
So I am writing my story. I am going back to the worst parts of my life and putting words to how I felt during those times and allowing God to do a deeper healing. There has been things I've blamed myself for and for a long time I've believed lies about myself that were a result of decisions I made in my past. I have never revisited my guilt and allowed God to take it from me. I have unknowingly been carrying shame, and believing lies that are effecting how I receive God's love.
I constantly ask God to help me to know Him more and help me to understand His love a little more. Through this act of giving God my guilt I am seeing how my story is truly ALL about His love. As if it could get any better, His love is just insane and I ask to be able to understand it more but I just dont get it at all.
I found myself sitting in the prayer chapel today writing out all the worst moments in my life and literally just laughing. I was laughing! I just cant believe how freaking cool God is! The love Jesus gives us is just incredible. It is unreal but real!
My story is to powerful to share out of shame. It is all about love and there is not shame in Love.
I am excited for the next time I can share my story knowing and truly believing I've been redeemed and set free! Knowing that my story is really the Lords story of endlessly pursuing me with his love, and in the end he got me!
Man God is so sweet!