The reality of a life lived without God has hit me hard recently. I’ve had this deep sense of how real God is and it is so hard to put into to words. Ive felt pretty alone and lost in this last season. My faith has been challenged, my belief in God has been challenged, my Identity has been challenged.
Ive felt dead, Ive felt ashamed for not believing in God enough, Ive felt lost and affraid. Ive been living my life with a continuous sense of defeat, like Ive lost the fight, Ive lost my purpose, and reason to believe.
But since Easter Sunday God has seemingly come rushing in.
In the Heart of Man documentary on Netflix an image is portrayed of a man (representing me) and another man (representing God) playing violin in harmony on a cliff side near the ocean. But then the mans eyes are distracted by the world by lust by desire by curiosity and questions and he walks closer to the cliff. The man portraying God continues to play their song in hopes to get the attention of the other man back. But ultimately the man steps off the cliff and falls to his destruction and defeat.
This image blew me away because I know that God and I know that man. I know those distractions, and I’ve experienced falling off the cliff.
I know what it’s like to live a life without God a life focused on the world and the fleeting life it offers. The lies are familiar, the “joys” are unfulfilling. I’ve also tasted and seen the goodness of God but still saught afer the goodness of the world so that I can somehow relate to the people around me.
But today! Today my heart is flooded with the overwhelming nearness of my God. I once thought God doesn’t speak to me but after listening to the voices of lies for so long, when I hear the voice of truth I know undoubtedly it is my God.
I can not deny that Jesus truly is alive and he brings me to life. Jesus litterally defeats the death inside of us and raises us up in freedom! And ohh the freedom we have because of Jesus is a feeling that cannot be compared to. When we live in the freedom of Jesus we view the world with new eyes, we face our fears with a new strength, which is not our own.
For me right now it feels like all these things I’ve learned about God in the past and growing up are no longer just things I know they are things I believe. I am experiencing first hand the realness of my God. He is real! And he tells us the truth!
So if you are dead, if you feel defeated, if you stepped off the cliff! Look up because Jesus is still looking right Into your eyes, he is still singing your song, the one that only you know the words to.
If you feel like you don’t have a purpose if you don’t know why you get up everyday, dare to listen to that other voice inside of you saying NO! There is a reason!
If you can’t take on the weight of your circumstances anymore , if the obstacles are bigger than you, there is strength in letting go of your understanding and running into the arms of God. And God is an expert at overcoming big problems.
Its not enough to just have knowledge, we need Jesus himself. We need his arms, his eyes, his hands, his peaceful voice.
I still have the same circumstance it’s still hard but I am stronger because my life comes from a living God, who speaks truth! He gives all of himself to us! Wow! Thank you Jesus!
Ive felt dead, Ive felt ashamed for not believing in God enough, Ive felt lost and affraid. Ive been living my life with a continuous sense of defeat, like Ive lost the fight, Ive lost my purpose, and reason to believe.
But since Easter Sunday God has seemingly come rushing in.
In the Heart of Man documentary on Netflix an image is portrayed of a man (representing me) and another man (representing God) playing violin in harmony on a cliff side near the ocean. But then the mans eyes are distracted by the world by lust by desire by curiosity and questions and he walks closer to the cliff. The man portraying God continues to play their song in hopes to get the attention of the other man back. But ultimately the man steps off the cliff and falls to his destruction and defeat.
This image blew me away because I know that God and I know that man. I know those distractions, and I’ve experienced falling off the cliff.
I know what it’s like to live a life without God a life focused on the world and the fleeting life it offers. The lies are familiar, the “joys” are unfulfilling. I’ve also tasted and seen the goodness of God but still saught afer the goodness of the world so that I can somehow relate to the people around me.
But today! Today my heart is flooded with the overwhelming nearness of my God. I once thought God doesn’t speak to me but after listening to the voices of lies for so long, when I hear the voice of truth I know undoubtedly it is my God.
I can not deny that Jesus truly is alive and he brings me to life. Jesus litterally defeats the death inside of us and raises us up in freedom! And ohh the freedom we have because of Jesus is a feeling that cannot be compared to. When we live in the freedom of Jesus we view the world with new eyes, we face our fears with a new strength, which is not our own.
For me right now it feels like all these things I’ve learned about God in the past and growing up are no longer just things I know they are things I believe. I am experiencing first hand the realness of my God. He is real! And he tells us the truth!
So if you are dead, if you feel defeated, if you stepped off the cliff! Look up because Jesus is still looking right Into your eyes, he is still singing your song, the one that only you know the words to.
If you feel like you don’t have a purpose if you don’t know why you get up everyday, dare to listen to that other voice inside of you saying NO! There is a reason!
If you can’t take on the weight of your circumstances anymore , if the obstacles are bigger than you, there is strength in letting go of your understanding and running into the arms of God. And God is an expert at overcoming big problems.
Its not enough to just have knowledge, we need Jesus himself. We need his arms, his eyes, his hands, his peaceful voice.
I still have the same circumstance it’s still hard but I am stronger because my life comes from a living God, who speaks truth! He gives all of himself to us! Wow! Thank you Jesus!